23 Weeks and Stressed

Before I even start this blog post...I want to point out that I am having a VERY long week and a very crabby week. Not really anything has gone wrong, it has nothing to do with the pregnancy except the fact that it's all I can think about. I also want to point out that I know it will get better and all this and I am just in a funk....Like my friend Jess said to me today, that I am the only one that can pull me out of this funk....So I appreciate all the support that I know many of you will give me, but please don't be upset if I don't jump at the advice right away....

 

I am now officially 23 weeks and closer to the end then the beginning. Heartburn has been kicking in full force this past week, in fact I had to go buy more tums, only because I don't like the green & yellow flavors in the pack we have :)  But other than that the pregnancy is going really well. She is moving like crazy. We get to see her again on Monday! I am super excited about that. Since I am farther along it will be nice to see how big she has gotten.

As for my funk I have trouble on a day to day basis of focusing on anything that does not include the baby. At work it's the worse, which is why home life is still fun because I can do things that have to get done for the baby....At work without going into too much boring detail, I have switched roles and not quite feeling the new role yet. It's still a bit vague and I am on a project that I am still trying to get my head wrapped around. I know it's my perfectionism coming through and I just have to let go. I have things that I have to get done and I just have to do them and not worry about them being perfect, because they probably still will be.

I have way too much on my list to research for the baby, between the breast pumps, the size diapers I am going to need and all the other things. I have to find a pediatrician, I want to take a CPR class before the little one comes, and then there is Day care. We have our first tour with the Eden Prairie Montessori school on Friday and then next Thursday with Primrose which is close to our place. I have to start calling around to some other places that are in home so I can make the decision. We will probably go talk to some of the in-homes in May. So we can make the decision of an in-home vs a center. I think we have decided not to go with a center like New Horizon's or Kinder Care, just because they are the same price in our area as the Montessori schools, so why not just put our child there, plus they are closer.....

I just want this week to be over, I want us to get the dressers and the gliders ordered, the border and the closet system up and see my little one on Monday. Hoping tomorrow and next week is better than today!

11 Weeks

Can you believe I am 11 weeks already. Seriously where did this time go. I still remember just finding out I was pregnant and now here I am, almost at the end of my 1st Trimester.

I want to put a disclaimer on this entry: I am not complaining about being pregnant. I am enjoying the fact that I am pregnant, I just am having a bit of a funk....

A couple of my friends are going through some struggles with their marriages. They are people that have been married for 10+ years and have hit some problems in their marriages and some of them are on their way to a divorce and I am truly saddened for them. I have only known a few people that have gotten a divorce and maybe because some of the problems they have had are ones that Mike and I have had and we worked through them. We were one of the lucky couples that became healthier for ourselves and thus it made our relationship and our marriage healthier. A year ago we were almost them and I am so Grateful today that we aren't. That Mike and I are together and are looking forward to a WONDERFUL life together.

Okay, enough about that....I struggled getting the motivation today to work out. My back has been hurting all day - and I want to Thank all of you who have suggested things to do....People keep telling me to go to the Chiropractor but I just can't do it. I didn't have a good experience at one and I felt worse when I left. and I really don't think that this is the time to "chance" that it will work this time. Yes I could have gone to a bad chiropractor and my parents who used to say they don't do any good, now go to one, at least my mom and it's totally helped her.  I think it's one of those things where when you get sick people give you all this advice on how to get better, and while somethings worked for one person it may not work for me. I don't want people to think I am not grateful - Again see above, I think I am in a funk....

But I have to say that I am SUPER excited about being a mommy...I look pregnant even more so then the picture above. I feel pregnant, I feel like people are seeing me as pregnant now and it's a good feeling. Mike leaned over last night in bed and put his hand on my tummy and said "goodnight peanut" and it made me feel so good and really excited about becoming a parent. I know that we can do this. I know that it will be scary, and crazy and we will lose a TON of sleep but it will all be worth it when we see our little peanut for the first time and when peanut grabs our finger for the first time or says Mommy or Daddy...

I am hoping my funk will be gone tomorrow. I am sure it's just the gloom that has been over our state for the past couple of days and things with my friends. On the plus side I get to share my pregnancy experience with 3 of my good friends and my aunt. Who could ask for better companions~